Tuesday, October 26, 2010

A desire to desire


Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Psalm 73:25-26

I wish this verse described me. I pray someday it truly will. I want to only desire Him. Sadly, there's a myriad of things that compete for my worship and I so easily choose them over Him.


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Friday, October 22, 2010

Smitten

Fall has stolen my heart. I am smitten.








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Relief

After relinquishing my closet, drawers, and shelves of all their contents, and tossing away heaps of inconspicuous rubbish, I can finally say my room is spic and span. Oh yes, I can breathe now....except not literally, because I have a stuffy nose from this darn cold..but that's a different subject. Interesting that, when my room is organized, everything else feels more organized too. Tis a good thing.
ps.
Deep cleaning your room is actually very amusing and helpful.
Amusing, because you discover old notes, cards, and maybe even a few parking citations that make you chuckle to yourself.
And helpful, because you might discover papers with old sermon notes, journal entries, prayer lists, or even resolutions you had written a year ago and have forgotten to work on. A pretty helpful reality check.
Try it one of these days.

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Monday, October 18, 2010

Love

Today I saw photographs of a wedding. It wasn't like any wedding I'd ever seen. I'm not referring to the structure, dresses, and decoration of the event...although very darling, I might add. What brought me to amazement and tears, unashamedly so, was the couple. This is what self-less love looks like, the kind of love only Jesus could ever bring about. She is one bride with an incredibly beautiful soul. I urge you to visit their blog and read into their story. See the rest of the pretty photos here.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Unseen Warfare

Whether we know it or not, we are all engaged in an obscure war. Some are fervently employed in the war, taking every battle seriously, knowing the outcome of the war is indeed composed and determined by the "minor" battles. Others are wounded, bleeding, and left staggering through the battlefield. Most are dead, unmoved, and lying on the sidelines. A multitude is oblivious of this war, and have not even begun fighting. Many are already taken captive by the other side. Yet, nobody is excluded from this perpetual war.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Life

I want my life to be...
a song which melody plays an astounding tune that brings glory to Your name. A story in which You, the author, is vividly seen orchestrating every event for my good and Your name. An incredible photograph that depicts colors of your grace, mercy, love, and truth. A picture where I am but a blur in the background, but your beautiful self-portrait is dominant. An equation where fear of You and Your love number my days. A treasure hunt, in which I seek the eternal treasure that will not perish.

Guess what?
My friend Taylor, a sweet and talented soul, sews aprons and bags. They are extremely adorable. Check out her new site here. Go ahead, order yourself a goodie.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

It's morning

I was just reading an entry from the book My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers. A quote stood out.
"The test of a man's religious life and character is not what he does in the exceptional moments of life, but what he does in the ordinary times, when there is nothing tremendous or exciting on. The worth of a man is revealed in his attitude to ordinary things when he is not before the footlights."
Well, that convicts me. I think it's something like..if you're faithful in little, you'll be faithful in a lot. This is something God has been putting a big emphasis on in my life right now.

p.s.
Guess who grandpa gave his spiffy vintage suitcase too? :) I am overjoyed. Thanks gramps.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Start of something good.

Lingering dissatisfaction feels so, well, dissatisfying. No, I'm not contradicting myself. I realize my other post was about being content. This dissatisfaction is of a different type. Means I'm not okay with being okay. Am I puzzling you? Allow me to articulate my thoughts in a way that is understandable. I'm just not okay with squandering time anymore. I'm not okay with the ordinary. I'm not okay with easy-going anymore. I'm not okay with my non-serious perspective on certain things. Suppressing His voice, that is constantly tugging at my heart either encouraging me to do good or trying to refrain me from doing wrong, is an activity in my life that has been prolonged for too long. God has given me a conscience and convictions and a desire for time with Him. I cannot put a lid on those things anymore. To be oblivious of the deepest longings in my soul is to starve myself of something rich and wondrous, that nothing and nobody else can supply. I want to listen. Listen more to His voice, and not just listen, but obey. And most of the time it might mean obeying something, that nobody else thinks is worth obeying. There are internal things He is brewing, that I cannot explain. But I understand He is always at work, and never fails to open my eyes. Praise Him. I am constantly brought face to face with His goodness. Things are changing, and I pray my pace will too. This dissatisfaction does not seem good, but I know it is the start of something good...just like everything else He brings about.
If you can relate, it's nice to know I'm not the only one.
If I lost you in my train of thought, my apologies.